Lot Lizard

you got a nerve

2003-02-11T04:28:56Z

wow, two months.
that goes to show you how busy i've been.
I went back to Arizona over the Holidays and did it way too much.
It was all good though, because I was doing a lot of GHB and Ecstasy. Two drugs that are fairly cheap in the AZ but totally outrageously overpriced here in California.
I couldn't even tell you how many times I got laid on New Years too.
Actually, I couldn't even tell you who I had sex with.
All that tells me, is that I had a damn good time.

Moving on to this year...
I went to this super hip/elite party at this place called On the Rox. I ended up pole dancing with certain super cute jackass stars. I also got it on in the bathroom with this fucking really hot swedish guy who's the singer of some band. I think they have a hit single or something. Not too sure. I know I've heard it a bunch of times on KROQ though. Anyway, it was kind of embarrassing because we broke the toilet and water started shooting right up my skirt. Oops. Oh well, I guess he's married anyway. I also booty danced with two of my favorite rappers, but most importantly...
Full on Grinding with "J.T." ALL NIGHT. I don't think I have to spell his name out people. I definitely had my hands all over him too. We were going to go home together, but dumb Craig got his ass kicked out for trying to make out with some girl from American Pie. The whole, "Oops I tripped and 'accidently' felt you up" trick DOES NOT WORK! ALL IT DOES IS MAKE IT SO I CAN'T GO HOME WITH J.T. BECAUSE I HAVE TO BABYSIT! Stupid Craig....
What else is there to report. Hmm.
Oh yes! I finally found a good "dust dealer." 85% pure baby! This will help me to lose the 20 pounds I want to get rid of in two weeks so I can 100 pounds! Not to mention it'll be good just for the month of February. I have about 6 different dudes to hook up with in 2 weeks. I gotta be ready you know?
Starting next month, I'll also have taken on a 2nd job with the illustrious www.supercult.com. I'm really excited about that. I told my dad and brothers and they were actually really supportive.
Also a pattern seems to be forming with my dancing habits. Everytime I go out dancing, I end up making out with some really hot dude. That's always fun. I don't blame them, who can resist my dancin' skillz!?
Oh yeah, two weeks ago, I went and saw Hot Hot Heat, The Walkmen, and Detachment Kit for like 5 days. Needless to say, I mixed a little business with pleasure. Or as Jimmy puts so well, "Dipped my pen in the company ink." What can I say, I have a thing for well dressed super tall boys that look pissed off all the time. Either that, or heroin is my new aphrodisiac. Which is a very good possibility.
Speaking of which, I got really high last night, and after the club, I ended up at some celebrity afterparty wearing a pink tutu and doc martins with a bunch of boy's numbers in my garters. The best was when a certain really tall,annoying, anorexic looking ex VJ said that he'd make me a star and to call him. Ha.
Hot Damn California Rulez!

it's hard to be smart when you're young

2002-12-10T20:09:44Z

i learned something new last night:
after 5 shots, you can't taste cocaine AND you can shove a bunch of pills in your mouth and not gag or worry about them all going down. And it's not 4 shots, not 4 1/2, it's definitely 5.
W-E-I-R-D.
I also "got in on" all over a hotel.
Lobby
Elevator
Pool
Poolside at the table wit hthe umbrella on it
Balcony
Room
Bathroom
Arcade
Um, Janitorial Closet
Uh...
Yeah.
OH, and the best were when we were doing it in front of people. Shit, I thought it would be awkward and uncomfortable, I've never been more wrong in my life. The only time I felt kind of bad was when we were in the arcade and there were these like 6 year old kids in there. It's ok though, I told them that this was the only way two people could play that motorcycle game; you know the one with the actual motorcycle that you sit on and kinda vibrates when you hit bumps.
Ah, kids are stupid, they don't know any better anyways.

last compassion

2002-11-20T21:28:24Z

so last night was my most interesting night out here yet.
i went to the har mar superstar show.
"K" and "J" brought Ms. Courtney, beers in hand and all.
We hit it off really well. Later while we were at the afterparty, we snuck off to the rainbow room with one of her infamous friends to take her out before she's sentenced for prison. Poor girl. That's what you get for stealing dumb shit though. I mean come on, go for something cool like a monkey or lots and lots of cocaine.
But getting back to the story, so we go to the rainbow room and we start dancing on the bar and courtney kisses me! not only that, coincidently, "rape me" happened to be playing. Everything from that point on is super hazy. I have this nice fitting black tank top now though that i think is/was courtney's and looks beat up, but is probably worth more than my car. OH, I also remember rockstars being "involved" in our evening, but I'll post about that on groupie central! I post on that thing so much, I think they're going to make me an administrator for it. YAY!

I Get Along

2002-11-19T00:50:32Z

I NEED TO GET LAID NOW!
this time by someone that isn't married.
and while I'm at it...
SOMEONE GIVE ME MORE HARD DRUGS!!!!!!!!
i hate coming down and not having anything else around.

i have to pee

2002-11-04T23:41:46Z

an excess of sex drugs and rock and roll.
yeah, piebald's halloween party was definitely a blast.
what i can remember of it anyway.

tonight:
strippers
strokes
"rage against the machines"
hot dude
har mar
osbournes
open bars

fun times....

what a week...

2002-10-08T22:52:54Z

I have lots of events to catch up on. I don't want to be a "namedropper," so I'll just use first names.
so a bunch of my boys came in to town together last week. very exciting.
i hitched a ride with one group of them to the AZ. They didn't ask for any money or anything. I just had to have sex with them. Nothing I haven't done before...
i even got my own hotel rooms and free food and stuff. it was a great trip.
i feel bad for one of the groups of boys though, because they kept bringing up me sleeping with all of them, and i kept rejecting the idea. i feel bad, i should have given them the same treatment. it's cool though. there's always next time.
last night i got back in to town and met up with some people at this bar. it's so weird being around celebrities all the time because people just stare at you. especially being with vincent, owen, vince, and daryl. a certain brilliant writer/actor tried to put the moves on me as well. i can't blame him...
i ended up making out with this amazing looking actor as well. he's only been out here for 4 months, but he's already getting casted in to some big shit. wow is he beautiful. he's also going to be reading for this new movie with dominique too. she has really cute hair, but is always fucked up. worse than me even. but anyway, his name is josh, look out for him.
this morning was crazy too. ethan came over and wished me a happy early birthday if you know what i mean. man is he good...
then it was off to work i go. i hit on my childhood crush today at the coffee shop too. it was my favorite New Kid, I had to. we hit it off pretty well and ended up in the bathroom a couple minutes later. maybe it was my forwardness that did it. i can't believe he actually used the line, "who's your favorite new kid?" while doing it. it wasn't half bad though. man did i laugh hard when he said that though.

yep

2002-09-24T19:32:06Z

juggling actors and rockstars are hard.
lunch with the cute boy from the used today.
maybe a little somethin something after.
yay.
hurley party tonight.
free sushi,cocktails,clothes, and cds.
my life rulez!

still drunk at 11:23 am, at work nonetheless

2002-09-09T18:27:19Z

Old School Nile Board
"It Could Happen..."

IT FUCKING HAPPENED!!!!!!!!!!
HOLY SHIT!

CALIFORNIA RULZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

time to update

2002-09-06T19:11:21Z

The VMA's were so fun!
It was really weird and awkward though, maybe that's what happens when you go on mescaline.
Gideon's aftershow armbands were G-A-Y. I wanted to rip them off so badly.
P.Diddy's party was Kra-zay!
Benji hooked up with Michelle Branch at the Maxim Blender partay. (Sorry Craigy)
Life has become such a blur. It's super hectic but so fun.
I guess I'll update on some highlights:
River City High was in town for a bit. You know what that means...
The weirdest with that was somehow one night I ended up at Cheetahs "Gentlemen's Club" showing those crappy strippers what was up with the pole.
Went to see The Used. Then I went to see their band play too. Not to mention the music video shoot. My foot is definitely in the door with one of those guys. Pot and chocolate muffins are the key to a boys heart. Or at least his pants anyway.
Saw Converge for free. That was pretty great. Nothing exciting about that night. I made out with a straight edge boy who for all I know is 14 years old. But man can he break dance.
Last night I went and saw Morrissey. I just got passes to his show on Friday too. He's such a sweetheart.
In even more rumorous news;
I'VE BEEN HANGING OUT WITH SHADY JEFF A LOT.
Draw your own conclusions from that...

weeeeeeee

2002-08-19T23:16:18Z

So the other night I went to a billion parties and here are my conclusions for the evening:
*Avril Lavigne is three feet tall and really a jewish girl from Long Island whose name is pronounced A-vril La-Vine.
*Beck is a good dancer, but not that great.
*Parties at Hollywood Castles with motes and shuttles are overrated.

It was also another blackout night. I'm pretty sure something was slipped in my drink though, but I'm totally ok with that. In fact, I prefer it.
One of my new favorite things about Blackouts though, is finding clues the next morning that indicate what happened the previous night. Like my purse was full of underwear. Boxers, Boxer Briefs, Everything. So weird. I have these sores though around my wrists, ankles, and neck. It appears as if I were tied up and when I asked Ross about it, he just laughed. Although he did wake up wearing bright red lipstick and a pink feather boa, so I doubt he can say anything...
Tonight I am going to get laid and remember it.

where is love now? bah bah bada da da

2002-08-16T22:29:16Z

caffeine and drugs are the only things that keep me going now.
the k3wL thing is i have these pinkish reddish circles around my eyes now, and they look really pretty.
last night i went to a couple of parties, but everynight is a party here.
the waterbed on the roof of "the standard" was rad though. it was in this red cone type thing so you couldn't really see the bed so you could, you know.
it's amazing how many people can fit on it too.
after the waterbed, one boy and i traded clothes. they were really tight on me and mine loose on him. he weighed 109 pounds and was 6'2. amazing.
that's why heroin is the magical drug kids.
i'm a model now.
so weird.
i totally forgot about "huffing." its so much fun. why don't people do that anymore?
i do. it adds to the high.

jugs

2002-08-09T01:51:06Z

what i love most about me and the fiancee's relationship, is it's so open.
you wouldnt think that boys that weighed about 80 pounds were good in the sack, but i have been proved wrong.
tonight is going to be another all night bone binge and the best part is that the boy wishes that he were here so he could watch.
how perfect is that?
i just hope that the PCP doesn't make me too wacked out to perform this evening. I hope these shakes wear off by 10 at least.
but on a lighter note, um, fuck.
i lost my train of thought.

speak to me of heroin and speed

2002-07-27T00:44:10Z

i have approximately two seconds to make a post.
i forgot how good the drugs were here.
there;s nothing like being in love in new york i tell ya.
conor is amazing. i'm so glad i'm here.
i wish i would have come prepared though. but you can only afford so many contraceptives you know?
and you havent;' lived until you've "rolled around" in $10,000 with someone.
that was quite an experience that i won't forget.

i want spaghetti

2002-07-18T01:25:00Z

So monday night was fun. Did a bunch of ketamine. It's weird, I've never had flashbacks of drug use until Monday. I remembered when Ross and I shot up blow for the first time and he thought he was a gila monster. So funny. He kept crawling around and sneaking up on people and biting their arms. The funniest was he wasn't letting go. Oh man. I suppose it sucked that he hurt a lot of people, but maybe it was one of those "you had to be there" things. I still feel bad about just ditching him in jail. I figure he's probably forgotten about it anyway.
Then there was the time that he was so high on smack that he thought he was a 2 year old little girl. I'm not going to even get in to that, but I'm just glad it wasn't me that had to change his diaper...

morrissey soon

2002-07-15T00:32:39Z

last night i went to a par-tay.
i left half way through to get a fix though and introduced a 15 year old boy to heroin. i've never seen someone puke as much in my entire life. it was pretty funny though because later when we went back to the party, he had decided to make some sort of loin cloth out of his shirt and jumped in the pool from the clubhouse roof.
i'm guessing he enjoyed himself anyway.
i don't quite recollect what happened after the party, but i woke up in my car which was parked out in front of Le Girls. I also had a full tank of gas and $50 in my pocket. i don't know where it all came from, but i'm not going to think about it and just move on.
the only clear thing i remember about last night is talking to the boy for a while when i was waiting for my dealer to see me. we're still trying to finalize things, but now i'm just looking forward to seeing morrissey among other things of course. i'll have to get some smack for that show too.

i already found what i was lookin for

2002-07-13T01:01:38Z

l.a. was fantastic
can't wait to get "hitched"
we hung out with ron jeremy and b. real from cypress hill on tuesday. so awesome. so funny. i wish my polaroid wasn't in the rental car.
i got a tan too.
well, my shoulders did anyway.
gross.
i can't wait to go to new york and see him.
then england.
then back to california.
i'm so tired today. we did way too many drugs.
i'm fine.
i miss him.

so

2002-07-09T18:05:41Z

i got the ring. it's huge. a little too gaudy for me. i have to get it resized too, it's a little too big. it makes my left hand like 30 pounds too.
we decided to have the honeymoon in vegas instead of getting married there. we're going to get the penthouse suite at the bellaggio-the nicest, most beautiful place in the world. they have picasso's, monet's, and renoir's there.
life couldn't get much better.
in 5 hours i fly to LA for 4 days of sex,(lots of)drugs, and rock n'roll.
if there was a god, i'd think i was blessed.
but instead i'm just really fucking lucky to have the perfect life.

sweet

2002-07-08T00:56:41Z

plane ticket to L.A. for Tuesday-recieved!
plane ticket to New York on the 24th-recieved!
plane ticket to New York again and 2 Morrissey tickets-waiting...
plane ticket to England for festivals-waiting...

Got the proposal. I've been thinking, and it's going to be a yes.
Vegas, here I come.

uh huh

2002-07-04T19:01:17Z

new colors
so hot
i wish people weren't so jealous of me all the time
it's not my fault that they don't have a boy that buys them designer stuff like mine does.
sorry.
New York-less than 3 weeks away

do i have to even write anything to start the rumors?

2002-07-04T04:06:54Z

so i picked up gabe from the airport and we went to the locust. afterwards we went back to the hotel and i got drunk, drugged up, and got some. short and simple. it was a crazy night though filled with life perservers, vomitting in water glasses, and cock fights(and i ain't talkin bout no roosters). good times.
then the next day was warped tour. i don't think i even need to explain that. i arrived and was given a spiffy laminate and spent the day running around and bus hopping. unfortunately because of my shenanigans, i was only able to see 4 of the bands out of the whole day. oh well, i had a blast. even went on a "date" afterwards but then i left my shirt on the thursday bus though. fuckin a. i'll get it back. hopefully...

it's what started it all...

2002-07-01T18:58:04Z

The Locust is tonight.
You know what that means...
Cocaine and sex.

what a busy week...

2002-06-28T02:18:02Z

From what I can remember of it, my week consisted of two shows...
And you know what that means!
Monday there was Pg.99, but unfortunately, there was a lack of cute in that band's department. But some of the other bands made up for it in a lot of ways. Unfortunately, as a result of my late night activities, I was late for work and I have these really bad scratches on my back and my legs are all bruised up. It happens I guess. And my new biggest pet peeve, is I don't have a problem if a boy needs to recline the front seat for more room, but at least put it back when we're done. It's so annoying. That reminds me, I need to wash my seat covers.
Then there was last night. Last night was Forstella Ford. I don't need to go in to detail about what happened, but it was pretty similar to Monday.
I keep thinking about how much bigger California is too. It's going to be non stop there. I'm so excited.
I also talked to Ross last night. Not Ross from the Bled, but from a different band. He gave me his new cell phone number and said he wants to do it with me next time he sees me. Tack another one to the wall soon!

so sleepy

2002-06-20T01:33:46Z

last night i saw joe brown again.
and boy did i see a whole lot of him.

i have a date on friday.
dinner+drinks=fun times later that night.

now, just throw some drugs in to that mix, and my night will be complete.

i need to get to know you first...

2002-06-11T18:32:10Z

Free alcohol and marijuana are always a good thing.
And who knew that boys that wore that tight of pants, could be that flexible?
Amazing.
Going back to Tucson for more tonight.
Yeehaw!

now i remember...

2002-06-05T22:13:32Z

so i thought last night would be more fun
but now i remember why i don't date high school boys...
they're horrible in bed
there wasn't a decent one out of all of them last night
i went to nancy's high school graduation and her lock in at her school armed with every form of protection i had
one by one, i pulled boys in the locker bay, but christ, it was all terrible
i should have pulled a couple of girls in instead
at one point i actually fell asleep
at least their drugs were decent...